It was a strange night. Josh’s alarm went off at 3:30am (he usually gets up at 4am to study), and for some reason sleep did not find me again til after 5am. So the snooze button and I were good friends once it was actually time to get out of bed. Just before I hit snooze for the third time, I was dreaming that Josh and I were in the freezer section of a big store. Something had fallen, and in typical Josh style, he was re-stacking bags upon bags of frozen sugar snap peas. While straightening the labels. And making sure they were all in a completely uniform line. I’d been standing back watching him, a little impatient, but knowing this is just one of his things. I handed him an errant bag, asking if I should just put it to the side since we’d probably come back to buy it later. He snatched it out of my hand… “No. It goes over here.”

This whole time, there is another man nearby who is asking Josh about his job, what kind of storage he deals with, how long his contracts are, etc. Josh is answering all of the questions in a nearly monotonous tone, as his focus is zeroed in on the very important task of perfecting the frozen sugar snap pea freezer case.

Exciting dream, yeah? The scary thing is that it could have all been real. Maybe it’s a memory of something that has actually happened! Or perhaps a glimpse of the future. These are the days of my life.

I chopped all of my hair off a few days ago. Really short. Really, really short. I’m happy with it. Once I figure out how to style it, I’ll post a pic.

I’ve been trying to sort my brain out and figure out what direction to point myself in. I have no doubt I can accomplish just about anything I want to– it’s a matter of figuring out what it is I want out of life. The old life goals are no longer relevant, but I’m not sure what the new ones are yet. Mostly I just feel like I’m scattered all over the place, all the time– restless with no focus. But I’m working on it. Making room for quiet time, sans distractions, is harder than it seems.

Now it’s time for COFFEE. And food. I just realized that I’m ravenous.

It was a moment of weakness, a quick and poor decision. In realizing that I had the ingredients to make flourless peanut butter cookies (including a partial bag of chocolate chips to toss into the mix), it became imperative to whip up a quick batch. They were perfect. And now my heart is racing like I’ve just run a marathon. Maybe I should have only eaten one cookie? Three might have been too many.

Have you read any of Samuel R. Delany’s books? I’ve just started Dhalgren, and it is written in a style unlike anything I’ve seen before. It’s disjointed, even for dystopian sci-fi. I’m not very far into the book yet, but I’m intrigued. Dhalgren, and Delaney’s works in general, were recommended in a recent Ask Metafilter thread, so I thought I’d give it a try. Next on the list: Anathem.

This Saturday, the kids are scheduled to have a sleepover at Aunt Jenn’s house… which means Mom & Dad get to do whatever we want for almost 24 hours. Is there anything good happening on Saturday night? We don’t actually go out in the world enough to know what people do for fun. No, really.

The picture meme that was all the rage on the El Jay today was actually the first meme that I really liked. It made me happy to see all of my friends’ faces. Ok, it would be better to see you all in person… but I’ll take what I can get. Oh, and speaking of pictures, I have a new phone… text me and send me a pic to store with your contact info!

You know what Friday is, right? AYE.

It has been so long since I’ve written here that I had to cycle through a couple of password guesses.

Hi, internets. I’m lonely and it’s my own damn fault. So, I’m trying to communicate better. Post on the blog! Great, except I don’t really have anything to say! So here I am, posting for the sake of posting, which is just…. worthless. Eww! I know.

Life is good, I am happy, just a bit lonely. Which sounds pretty pathetic, but that’s the truth.

Here’s a pic of me in a Pikachu hat:

*Not As Evil As I Appear, Trust Me. F’real.